Overwhelmed

Sorry for the absence. I've been overwhelmed by life lately and not much feeling up to posting. I have been posting on my other blog, but that's because it doesn't take much brainpower to upload outfit pics. ;)

I'm still terribly behind on bar study, and I'm feeling very anxious about it. I'm also anxious about my health problems, which currently include leg circulation issues and numbness in the tips of my toes. I don't know if it's because of the hypothyroidism, because I haven't been exercising and/or because of stress. Maybe I should go the doctor, but thinking about how much it's going to cost is stressing me out even more. My individual PPO is crap. It seems it hardly covers anything. I got at least 6 bills ($300+) from 2 doctor's visits and 2 blood tests I did over the past couple months!!

M tried to get me on his insurance at one point, but the company will only allow same-sex unmarried partners. (My dad put his girlfriend on his insurance, so I know that some companies will allow opposite-sex partners) I'm just going to have to hope that I find a job quickly after the bar and it comes with good health insurance.

I still haven't done a budget, but I know I can make it through at least the beginning of August. I hope I've lost some weight by then, because otherwise I'm going to have to scrape some money together to buy new work clothes... everything is so tight and uncomfortable. :(

M keeps telling me that he wants to take me on vacation after the bar... I don't know what destination he has in mind, but wherever we go, I can't WAIT! I just need to keep reminding myself that there's an end to bar study, and a reward, in sight.

5 comments:

paragon2pieces said...

you can do it! i'm up right now catching up on a video lecture because i'm behind too. but we'll get there :)

enza said...

What's the age difference between your father and his girlfriend?

Sunflowers said...

@paragon2pieces: Thanks! We will... I have hope ;)

@enza: they're very close in age. why do you ask?

enza said...

no real reason. Things like this interest me. I'm 44 and may be able to attract early 30s girlfriends with some luck but that's as far as my range stretches now.

I'm fit and have remarkable skin. My face has barely seen sun in 20 years. I weight train, which retards the aging process - nothing crazy but solid, intense circuit training. I supplement vitamin D and also eat spinach and oily fish.

Unfortunately women age worse than men. Still, looking around, most men my age are physical disgraces.

Sunflowers said...

@enza: What a funny comment. Are you hoping to find an "early 30s girlfriend" among my readers? :p

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