Juggling

I've been feeling kind of overwhelmed lately trying to juggle work, school, exercise, blogging, eating healthy, keeping the apartment clean, sticking to a skin/teeth regimen, watching my spending habits... so much to think about and take care of! I was just getting into a routine last week and then I went on vacation, and that threw everything off-kilter. I have a detailed schedule that I printed out and pasted all over the house, but it feels so good (in a guilty pleasure kind of way) to not stick to it.

I think if I didn't feel so tired at night I would be a lot more productive with my time... as it is, I'll sit down at the computer and suddenly 2 hours have gone by. I enjoy those hours, but at the same time feel guilty. I think I should restrict my computer access, but I know I'll rebel against my own restriction! I just need to find some balance... I'm not so good at that. When I do something, I do it obsessively. (Everything except studying! I really need to find something I dislike more right now; then I'll turn to studying to get away from it! ha.)

I think I need to adjust my sleeping hours. M and I both go to bed at 2, and wake up at 10. Though lately I've been falling asleep at 12, and still waking up at 10! Maybe I need to stick to 12, and force myself to wake up at 8... Because I'm never productive past 12. I watch tv with M, but that's about it. If I woke up at 8, I could read e-mails and blog for 1 1/2 hrs, then go to the gym from 10-11. Hopefully that will give me an energy boost for the rest of the day?

It's almost March and I feel like my goals are slipping through my fingers. I know my financial goals won't be met until I get a full-time job. But before I get that job, I want to get the rest of my life in order. But... I don't want to push myself TOO hard (I don't want to get sick, as I'm prone to doing when I get overly stressed)... and I want to be happy. Balance, balance... I will find you.